Well, my weight is still stuck in the high 230's. This is starting to get really frustrating. I have been bouncing around the high 230's for over three wees now and can't seem to get off of this plateau. At first, I was taking it in stride as just another plateau that would eventually pass. However, as I am closing in on the month mark on the plateau, I am starting to really get worried.
The scale really pissed me off this morning. Despite being diligent with meals and not snacking, the weight jumped up to 238.4. I'm getting really sick of being stuck here. It is times like this that make it hard to keep going. When progress is not visible, it makes you want to quit.
But, motivation to keep going is all around. There is a running discussion thread I follow called the "200+ Pound Club!" that people who are overweight like me post to about their efforts to get in shape with the "Couch to 5K" or "C25K" program. There was a post on there this morning from someone who was starting up again after at least a year away. This person said they were now completely out of shape. That made me think back to a couple of my past failed attempts to get in shape:
Failed attempt #1:
In the fall of 2002 I was really sick for about 2 months with an illness that the doctors could not identify. When it passed, after about a month, I had lost 40 pounds from being sick. I decided I was going to get in shape after that because I already started to loose weight, but I did nothing. Just gave up because I was in law school and "I didn't have time to work, go to school, and workout." The 40 pounds came back very quickly.
Failed attempt #2:
In December of 2003, I joined a gym. I was in my third and final year of law school and things were going well. I had two jobs, one as a bartender and a legal job, and I was going to school full time. I went to the gym religiously every morning at around 5 a.m., ate planned out healthy meals, and ended up loosing about 50 pounds by March. However, I took a weekend off to go to Europe (yes, that's right, a weekend! I was able to get really cheap airfare as a student and since my school days were drawing to a close I decided to just go. I had a total of 46 hours on the ground in which I visited London, took the train to Paris, spent 8 hours there, and then came home.) I came back from the trip and two weeks after that I was going on a cruise with my wife (girlfriend then). I took the two weeks in between off and said "I'll pick this back up when I get back from the cruise." Well, I never did and the weight came back.
Failed attempts #3 - 5
Between late 2004 and 2008, I had three attempts to get in shape that were entirely unremarkable and didn't see more than 10 pounds lost. Each time telling myself I was "too busy" to do it.
Failed attempt #6
The most recent failed attempt started in early 2009. I joined a gym (the same gym I go to now) and started working out. I lasted about 4 months and lost about 25 pounds, but my wife and I were buying a house last year and I made another excuse and told myself that things were too busy to get in shape now so I would stop working out and pick it back up soon. Well, I didn't and we all see the picture of where I was in December of 2009, weighing 325 pounds.
So, why talk about all these failed attempts? For a couple of reasons. First, history is destined to repeat itself if you don't remember it. That is why I constantly look at the old 325 pound me, to remember where I was and where I never want to be again. Second, I know I am only succeeding now because I have failed before many times. Every time I failed, I learned a little more about myself and how to change my life to be a health person. I have constantly adjusted how I eat and workout and have found something that works for me. Third, since I am at a very frustrating point right now, it would be easy to quit or to "take some time off." Well, remembering the times I did that before helps me stay on track here. Lastly, I want everyone out there who is reading my blog to know that I have failed many times. I am not perfect and am a normal person just like all of you. I want you all to see that you can do what I am doing now and it is possible.
So, I am going on with my new lifestyle today including a trip to the gym and healthy meals. I know this plateau will eventually fall and the weight will eventually drop. Thank you for all of your supportive comments and helping me get through the tough times. Without this blog and being accountable to those who are reading it, I might have quit long ago. Instead, I have gone far enough to change my lifestyle.
I am still running. Still eating healthy. Still very happy at what I have done and where I am now compared to where I was in January.
Life is good.